Wednesday, November 27, 2002

My first solo pumpkin pie is in the oven. I've helped Mom make pie in the past, but this is my first time doing it all by myself. I'm a little worried about how it will turn out because after I started mixing up the pumpkin filling, I discovered we didn't have any ground cloves, only whole cloves. But I noticed some "clove dust" at the bottom of the clove jar, and I figured that would be about the same as ground cloves, so I dumped all the cloves in a bowl, and picked out the whole ones, leaving the little bits. But these only amounted to 1/8 of a tsp, and I was supposed to have 1/4 tsp. But maybe clove dust is stronger than ground cloves? We'll see tomorrow when we eat it, I guess. Actually, there was a little filling left over that didn't fit in the crust, so I ate it and it seemed fine. At least, it didn't seem overly clove-y

My friend ED had her very own art show up here at the college this past week, which culminated last night in her giving a gallery talk and lots of people eating cheese. It was fun, there was a gratifyingly large attendance, and I'm very happy for her.

NaNoWriMo is almost over! And I will definitely be clocking in at 30 single-spaced, MS Word, pages for our little version that our Writers Group has done. Writing this story has had a very surprising side-effect: I've fallen in love with Art Deco furnishings! They're so clean, jazzy, sleek, smooth...I love them! Someday I'd like to do a room in Art Deco (maybe a kitchen, since they're already full of geometric things like cupboard doors)...or maybe incorporate it into my Hollywood Haven themed living room? Hmm. See, I was researching Art Deco (particularly the early styles of the mid-1920's) because one of the characters in my novella gets an apartment furnished in that style.

I should probably go finish drying dishes.

Thursday, November 21, 2002

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just found out there will be no more new episodes of my beloved Angel until...January! How am I supposed to live for 6 weeks not knowing what happens next? How could Joss (Whedon, creator of Buffy and Angel and the person we blame--or praise--for everything that happens on the shows) do this to me? Not only am I barely working at the moment, but then I lose Angel? Grr. Aargh.

Tuesday, November 19, 2002

Oh, I'm a bad, bad girl (to paraphrase Wesley Wyndham Price from the Buffy the Vampire Slayer episode "Earshot" where Buffy can hear everyone's thoughts). I haven't blogged in days!

The Creed concert ROCKED!!!! We had floor tickets, and we got there early enough that we were only 15-20 feet from the stage! We could see everything! It was just amazing. We were close enough that we could feel the heat from the pyrotechnics! And I mean, instantly feel it. As soon as they'd light the torches or start the sparks we'd feel it. Of course, it was really really really crowded there, so between all the people and the pyrotechnics it got pretty warm. MB says she almost passed out at one point. I didn't notice the warmness so much once Creed came on though (Stereo Fuse and Default opened). ED says she liked Default as well as Creed, but not me. The weirdest thing about being that close was how the bass affected us. It's like our chests became speakers or something. We could feel the bass reverberating in our chests and throats (and at one point in my sinuses, which sucked because I got a headache later). It felt like someone was knocking the wind out of me in time to the music. That was mostly with the opening acts though. They had their bass cranked way up. Creed affected me much less, or else I was just used to it by then.

Wanna know the coolest thing about the Creed concert? We were so close that Scott Stapp actually heard my voice! Mine and mine alone! During a quick lull between songs, I screamed "SCOTT!!!!" as loud as I could with what voice I had left. He whipped his head around to look in my direction and grinned!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How awesome is that? I made Scott Stapp smile! Of course, he's made me smile a lot more than just once...

Okay, one last posting of Creed lyrics. They didn't play this song this time, but they did in August, and Scott told us that it's about Creed's fans and their relationship with the band, etc. Even though they didn't play it this time, they made it clear how important their fans are to them :-D

"Stand Here With Me"

You always reached out to me and helped me believe
All those memories we share
I will cherish every one of them
The truth of it is there’s a right way to live
And you showed me
So now you live on in the words of a song
You’re a melody

You stand here with me now

Just when fear blinded me you taught me to dream
I’ll give you everything I am and still fall short of
What you’ve done for me
In this life that I live
I hope I can give love unselfishly
I’ve learned the world is bigger than me
You’re my daily dose of reality

You stand here with me now

On and on we sing
On and on we sing this song

‘Cause you stand here with me

Written by Tremonti/Stapp Published by Tremonti/Stapp Music (Adm. by Dwight Frye Music, Inc.)/Dwight Frye Music, Inc. (BMI)
Produced, Engineered & Mixed by John Kurzweg, Kirk Kelsey and Creed

Thursday, November 14, 2002

How could I be so stupid? I walked out of the apartment today without a single Creed cd! I told myself I'd been listening to Creed for the last two days and I should listen to something else lest I become boring. Hah. Now I'm jonesing for them, and they're at home while I'm at work. Grr. Well, here's my most absolute favorite Creed song ever: "What's This Life For?" from "My Own Prison". It was the last song of their regular set at the concert we went to in August...

"What's This Life For"

Hurray for a child
That makes it through
If there's any way
Because the answer lies in you
They're laid to rest
Before they know just what to do
Their souls are lost
Because they could never find
What's this life for
I see your soul, it's kind of gray
I see your heart, you look away
You see my wrist, I know your pain
I know your purpose on your plane
Don't say a last prayer
Because you could never find
What's this life for
But they ain't here anymore
Don't have to settle the score
Cause we all live
Under the reign of one king

Written by Tremonti/Stapp - Published by Tremonti/Stapp Music (Adm. by Dwight Frye Music, Inc.) / Dwight Frye Music, Inc. (BMI)

Wednesday, November 13, 2002

Four More Days! ! ! ! Oh boy, am I getting jazzed up about the concert. Not really a whole lot else going on here, although tonight my husband and I are going to watch There's No Business Like Show Business and drink some eggnog for absolutely no reason other than we thought it would be fun. I know, I know, we're wild and crazy people.

Today's Creed song that caught my attention while I listened to it here at work: "What If?" from their second album, Human Clay

"What If"

I can't find the rhyme in all my reason
I've lost sense of time and all seasons
I feel I've been beaten down
By the words of men who have no grounds
I can't sleep beneath the trees of wisdom
When your ax has cut the roots that feed them
Forked tongues in bitter mouths
Can drive a man to bleed from inside out
What if you did?
What if you lied?
What if I avenge?
What if eye for an eye?
I've seen the wicked fruit of your vine
Destroy the man who lacks a strong mind
Human pride sings a vengeful song
Inspired by the times you've been walked on
My stage is shared by many millions
Who lift their hands up high because they feel this
We are one We are strong
The more you hold us down the more we press on
What if you did?
What if you lied?
What if I avenge?
What if eye for an eye?
I know I can't hold the hate inside my mind
'Cause what consumes your thoughts controls your life
So I'll just ask a question
What if?
What if your words could be judged like a crime?

Written by Tremonti/Stapp Published by Tremonti/Stapp Music (Adm. by Dwight Frye Music, Inc.)/Dwight Frye Music, Inc. (BMI) Produced, Engineered & Mixed by John Kurzweg

Tuesday, November 12, 2002

Just got a message from my parents, who are still in Florida, but gained access to a computer for a while and checked their email. They didn't get to see a NASA launch after all because it was scrubbed due to a leaky fuel valve or something. :-(
FIVE MORE DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Five days until MB and ED and I go to the Creed concert!!! It'll be mine and MB's second (we went to one in August) and ED's first. I'm already getting bouncy! I've been listening to my Creed cds all morning here at work. I've decided to post lyrics to my favorite Creed songs here for the next few days in celebration. Here's a song that, while it's never been one of my ten favorite Creed songs, struck me this morning as being particularly poignant. It's from their first album, "My Own Prison". They played it in August, and I hope they'll play it again this time, because thousands of rock fans crying "all we want is unity" is pretty awesome.
Plus, I really like how it applies to issues like racism. If we could just stop harping on differences, setting one person above another because they're in the minority or majority, maybe we'd get somewhere. By giving any group special privileges, we set them up as targets for the other groups we are slighting. If we could just treat people as individuals instead of members of a particular race, religion, or political party, then we could have a little more peace. People would get praised or punished on the basis of their own merits and actions, not on whether they have a stronger lobby in Washington or more supporters in Hollywood. Ahh, yes, I am an idealist. And I like being an idealist.


Affirmative may be justified
Take from one give to another
The goal is to be unified
Take my hand be my brother
The payment silenced the masses
Sanctified by oppression
Unity took a back seat
Sliding further in regression
The only way is one
I feel angry I feel helpless
Want to change the world
I feel violent I feel alone
Don't try and change my mind
Society blind by color
Why hold down one to raise another
Discrimination now on both sides
Seeds of hate blossom further
The world is heading for mutiny
When all we want is unity
We may rise and fall, but in the end
We meet our fate together
The only way is one
I feel angry I feel helpless
Want to change the world
I feel violent I feel alone
Don't try and change my mind

Written by Tremonti/Stapp - Published by Tremonti/Stapp Music (Adm. by Dwight Frye Music, Inc.) / Dwight Frye Music, Inc. (BMI)

Monday, November 11, 2002

My perfectly wonderful weekend has made Monday even more depressing. Plus, I'm hungry. But lunch is two hours away.

At least the weekend was fun. I watched waaaaay too many movies (6) and ate too many doughnuts (3). It was great. But now I'm sleepy (doesn't help that this morning's radio episode of Sam Spade dealt with insomnia), hungry, and tired of work already. Good thing there's only one Monday each week.

My parents are in Florida. They called Friday night with the news that they had tickets to a NASA launch! I suppose they'll call me again one of these days and tell me all about it.

I should never watch Breakfast at Tiffany's. It always depresses me, and I can never quite tell why. See, I'm never totally happy with the way it ends, but I can't explain my unhappiness. Grr. PLUS the copy of The Apartment that I got from the library because I've wanted to see it forever...well, that particular copy has just been watched too many times apparently, because it wouldn't play at all in our vcr. At least the other five movies I watched were awesome and made me very happy: On the Waterfront, The Hustler, The Fast and the Furious, The Lion King, and Chocolat. And the Angel episode last night was hilarious.

Friday, November 08, 2002

In a few hours I'll be a Speech Team widow. My darling boy is leaving at 6 tonight to go to a speech tournament, and he'll be gone until 10 tomorrow night. So what are my plans? Well, tonight ED, MB, and maybe Grabber are going to watch Chocolat and The Fast and the Furious. And I plan to get 5 videos from the library and just veg out tomorrow. Plus I intend to scrub the tub and the kitchen floor and probably vacuum.

I guess by now you've notice I use initials or nicknames when I refer to my friends on this blog. As Max says in Mission: Impossible, "You don't know how comforting annonymity is to someone in my profession. It's like a warm blanket." Not that I'm a spy in so many words, but you never know who might be reading this blog. If it's a friend, they'll know who I'm talking about. If it's an undesirable person who might use information against me, then I have this to say to them: "Nyah nyah nyah-nyah nyah." Not that any of this really matters, because who cares about some writer and her friends and who would do anything to them anyway? Well, I guess all of this is really just to make my dad happy should he ever read this. He's quite the Jerry Fletcher (see Conspiracy Theory for more information).

Wednesday, November 06, 2002

I found the coolest online radio station ever! You can access it at or if you have Windows Media Player you can find it under special interest stations or something like that. Anyway, it's called Brando Classic Old Time Radio, and it rocks! I can listen to it while I'm at work, and it's like being allowed to watch really old tv! Today I got to hear "The Cisco Kid", "Red Rider", "The Lone Ranger", "Abbot and Costello"'s so awesome! Yesterday I heard a "Sam Spade" and a "Dragnet", and the day before I heard "The Shadow" and "Sherlock Holmes." I'm entranced! And the weird thing is, my productivity has actually gone up!

Tuesday, November 05, 2002

"Sleigh bells ring, are you listenin'? In the lane snow is glistenin'!" That's right, we've got snow! Not that I expect it to last, but the ground was fairly white this morning, and it took me 5 minutes to brush off the car. When I was walking to the car, I was thinking how cool it was that mine were the very first footprints in the snow (because who else living at a college is crazy enough to be walking around outside at 6:45am?). And then I was suddenly reminded of a quotation from the movie Chisum in which the title character (played by John Wayne) says: "Wherever you go, sooner or later, there's the law. And sooner or later you realize that God's already been there." Well, I'm not saying God was leaving footprints in the snow, but one of the adorable little bunnies He created had been. It was probably the bunny I usually spot on the way to work.

But mine were still the first HUMAN footprints on that particular stretch of campus.

My parents, brother, and grandma are in Florida right now. Being me, I'd rather have snow. Except that I've never been to Florida. Yet.

Monday, November 04, 2002

I took my Romanza cd by Andrea Bocelli to work today, and as usual listened to track 8, "Vivo Per Lei", four thousand times. I love it! Even the translated-into-English words are beautiful...

"Vivo Per Lei"
("I Live for Her")
(by V. Zelli, M. Mengali, G. Panceri)

I live for her, you know, since
the first time I met her.
I do not remember how, but
she entered within me and stayed there.
I live for her because she makes
my soul vibrate so strongly.
I live for her and it is not a burden.

I live for her too, you know,
and don't be jealous:
she belongs to all those who
have a need that is always switched on
like a stereo in the bedroom,
to someone who is alone and now knows
that she is also for him, for this reason
I live for her.

She is a muse who invites us
to brush her with the fingers.
Through a piano
death remains far away;
I live for her.

I live for her who often knows
how to be sweet and sensual;
sometimes she stuns you but
it is a blow that never hurts.

I live for her. I know she makes me
travel from town to town
and suffer a little, but at least I live.

It is painful when she leaves.
I live in hotels for her.
It grows with supreme pleasure.
I live for her in the vortex.
Through my voice
it expands and produces love.

I live for her, I have nothing else,
and how many others I shall meet
who, like me, have written on their faces
"I live for her."

I live for her
on a dais or against a wall...
I live for her to the limit.
...also in a harsh tomorrow.
I live for her to the very edge.
Every day
a conquest;
the protagonist
will always be her.

I live for her because now
I have no other way out,
because, you know, music
is something I have truly never betrayed.

I live for her because she gives me
rests and notes with freedom.
If there were another life I'd live it,
I'd live it for her.

I live for her, music.
I live for her.
I live for her, she is unique.
I live for her.
I live for her.
I live
for her.
Feel free to laugh at me.

For the last couple weeks my sinuses have been acting up, as they usually do in the fall. But this year I experienced something that doesn't usually accompany my allergies: a peculiar ringing in my ears. My ears rang most of the time, just a little, but enough to be annoying, for about three days. And then they would pretty much only ring while I was at work. And this second ringing was a very intermittent, high-pitched ringing that would last for 2-20 seconds, and then go away for a minute or so, only to start up again. And today I figured out what it was: the new printer that sits about 10 feet away from me. Every time it prints (and that is quite often in a paper-oriented place like this), it makes this high-pitched electronic whistle, that when muffled by the headphones I usually wear, sounds like a ringing in my ears.

At least I know I'm not going either deaf or mad.

On another happy note (so many for a Monday!), I took Gabriel to the camera shop down the hill this weekend, and for $20 they'll have an answer and an estimate for me in 10-14 days. Hooray! So superb compared to the $120, 6-8 weeks offer from the place in the mall!

Friday, November 01, 2002

This has been an eventful morning. They're tarring the roof of the place I work, so it's been really noisy all morning. Then suddenly, one of the ceiling tiles fell down! And a few more looked ready to follow, including a big air-duct grate. And there was a big piece of metal sticking through the hole in the ceiling. So the people who work on that side of the room had to move, and then this woman brought in a huge ladder, climbed up, and started yelling at the roofing crew. They finally got the point, I guess, because now there are workmen wandering around and climbing ladders and talking on little radios.

Today is the beginning of NaNoWriMo. If you don't know what that is, go to The Writers Group I belong to is doing its own version of NaNoWriMo. Instead of writing 50,000-word novels in a month, we're writing 30-page novellas. That's a little more workable for the group, considering that all of them except me are still in college. I've started mine this morning, jotting down a few words while I work. Its working title is "Rudolph Valentino Reincarnate".

Last night was fun. We got our portraits made for $10, and then went trick-or-treating in the mall. The dance at college really sucked though. We only stayed for 3 songs, which all reeked, and then left. The school decided to try out a new dj, which was a big mistake. They should just stick with our pal 'Draven' (that's his pen name, so if he gets famous some day, you know I knew him in college) for a dj, because his dances rock!